Let me just start off saying I like the holidays, I truly do. However at the same time I don’t. I can only say that because I just don’t really feel the holiday spirit. My birthday falls between Halloween and Thanksgiving, and leading up to it, I get depressed. This year has been a change because I was able to treat myself to whatever I wanted because of a gift card.
Sharing this with my therapist, I kinda broke down. I couldn’t cork it even if I tried, and let me tell you, I’ve had practice. She told me to go treat myself and do whatever it is I wanted and spend it only on me. I can honestly say I really don’t know how to do that but I gave it a shot. I took myself to see Interstellar and Big Hero 6. On top of that my role playing family got me a few shirts that I absolutely adore. She (my therapist) told me You were raised not to think you mattered. You do, it stuck with me. Because it really is true, I had to always choose between me or my family and if I chose wrong I felt it.
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